i think typing helps.

sometimes, i wonder if i can fully trust, believe again in the thing called love. after being disappointed countless times by the opposite sex/ people u cant choose but who stay with u for life, i start to wonder if i could be truly happy again. today i found myself thinking of u. yes the YOU who said u would be there for me a year ago at this time. well, i wasnt in the state of accepting u fully, and obviously u found no need to wait. like wad uncle tan said i guess, outta sight, outta mind. but i wonder, what if i told u something then, something, anything, anything along the lines of hey i really really wanna be with u too, give me some time to get over someone i havta get over. how would things be like now. will i still be who im with. and yes, it seems like im going thru many guys all at once. but its not how it is. im stuck. always stuck on the one before, and i try (hell yes i try) to crawl my way out each and everytime. everytime i think i have fallen in love with who i should, i go back to my old ways after some time and wonder bout those i haven started/got dumped by. everytime i try to love you more NOW, u say something/ do something that makes me push myself away from u, cause i think its not worth a try.

o please the person above, just let me KNOW whos the ONE and stick with it. thank u.

everything you want.

beryl is a genius, she finished her education essay one day before the dateline (like how amazing yos).

beryl thinks vonny the best friend is questioning her ability to pick a boyfriend, beryl is very worried about this.

beryl is afraid that vonny's words might come true (touches wood many many times).

beryl does not want to rise from one depression to fall into another.

beryl is VERY HUNGRY now, but she is alone and waiting for her best monday breakfast partner aka uncle lam to finish his lab so she can makan.

beryl thinks avocado juice rocks her socks.

beryl thinks staying at sheares hall on sundays was the best decision she has ever made.

beryl think weiwen loves her UBER MUCH because she feeds weiwen and makes her laugh her ass off.

beryl likes to think that this week will be exciting max.

beryl is uber happy that shes fish-spa-ing again (shakes butt).

beryl wants to know if yuan yuan and vonny wants to go let fishes nibble their feet.

beryl will also be going for the baba-bling exhibition (SCREAMSSSS YAYYYYY).

beryl is happppppyyy that u remembered.

beryl thinks both best friends should cross-examine mr hippo (while lettting fishes nibble at their feet) so that she can determine whos level of humour wins (although the answer is HOW obvious).

beryl is waiting for rachel liau-ey and dragon/phoenix lover qi-tan to hurry unite again as the happy trio so that they can traumatise mr hippo.

beryl doesnt know about how mr hippo is catergorised in her life yet.

beryl thinks the only fair thing she can do for u and her is to get over everything before she can start on a clean clean slate with u.

beryl needs time.

beryl still sinks into solitary shut off the world sadness mode sometimes. (but she thinks its getting lesser, and she is glad about it)

beryl likes the little surprises now and then. :)

beryl needs caramel frappe with less whipped cream and more caramel drizzle AGAIN.

beryl likes to irritate everyone.

beryl thinks talking in third person perspective is actually QUITE FUN.

glorious

Thank you, for leaving me(this is so not sarcastic), but thank you, because it made me learn howta love others(more and more). :)

So this is what it feels like
This is how it feels, now im finally smiling on the inside
This is what it looks like, this is how it looks from the outside staring in
And it’s glorious just to laugh like us
And the world will turn it'll never stop
Cos I’ve nothing to hide, we’ve got nothing lose
And it’s glorious yeah it’s all I see on a day like this you know it 's meant to be
Now I’ve got nothing to hide I’ve got nothing to lose, but you
And it’s glorious

kills self

is like totally lost, cause she doesnt know what she is doing/did.

yea mans.

give me a little more time

maybe it really is going a lil too fast.

cause sometimes i get uber happy, and sometimes i get uber worried.

any o hows. im supposed to be doing my ageing essay now, but yes, im not. argh!

shld start ta concentrate. sighs.

just so u know

thank you. :)

for starbucks coffee(s), pinky the frower, the quirky notepads and endless suppers. (IM STILL PMS-ING) (and i do say thank you alrights :P )

random thought

cause you brought out the best in me, but u left too soon.

argh! shld start doing some work.