cause u make me smile please stay for awhile now.

fifiiii is extremely stressed/ irritated bout tmrws exam.

sexuality sexuality sexuality.

can the info just like diffuse into my head PRETTY PLEASE.

cant afford ta screw up like how i screwed up nm.

eeeeeeeeeeeek.

PLEASE LET ME KEEP MY SECOND UPPERRRRR.

ROARS.

how can i possibly drop 0.2 last sem.

kills self.

recalls wad tong said: don get a boyfriend in uni.

looks at current state.

(screams TAN YUAN YUAN QUICK PULL ME OUT OF THIS AGAIN)

thank u for the ballloooons :)

会是爱得不够多,还是根本爱错

because i dont think im ready to love again, or mayb i never did knew how.

and i dont exactly have an idea of what im getting myself into now.

when well, all i should be doing is studying.

but here i am, with a physically tiring job and tons of readings piled up.

but still, here i am.

sometimes, its scary being happy, its as though i never did deserve it.

错在那不该做的一直做
该说的没有说

this time around, i will tell u when i heart u alright. :) i, well have stopped using the word promise, since i dont believe in promises myself. but i'lllllllll try. :) so yes i will say what i say whether it sounds like a spoilt brat, a dumbass, or a stupid fool in love, cause what good does it bring to keep what i feel in my heart, and smile to myself when im alone. well none. so yes. thank u for letting me learn tht i havta tell u how i feel what i feel whenever whereever without worrying, and tht u will listen to all i havta say and love me for it.

and tht dear one who said, say what u really wanta say when u feel like saying it. (my guts donor)

starbucks+bubble man(who is starting to have a bubbly head and shoulders not yet knees and toes, cause hes being "blown" too much)+hippo momo and violet the friendly car+east coast=rocks my socks BIG TIME

a couteous lie.

i refuse refuse refuse to forget!

roses roses and more roses. :)

so yes im turning into a busy busy bumble bee.

on a random note, why do guys like to promise me meals, like isit a courtesy thing. seriously. like if u dont mean it DONT ask it. and o my tian this is not a one off thing, it happens like ALOT. does my face really write, hey-i-need-a-meal-with-someone-anyone, ok mayb it really is a courtesy thing.

i shld do more surprises for my friends, like yuanyuan's cookie (failed) surprise. wheeeee. i know ure very proud of me for not crumbling into lovesick madness. :)

bubble mannnnnnnn to the rescueee. ok random scream. hahahaha.

first of the gang

its amazing how many memories i have collected in these six months.

like. what if they were with u?

but i guess we'll never know.

so dont/stop look(ing) back, i tell myself.

cause it will all be fine, we all need a little backbone.

and one day i will meet the one who will wear my grape-soda badge. (well at least i hope so, hur hur.)

The Call

comex. laughing.
mulitude of films on sex workers. pondering.
zee avi. bbq chicken wings, kaya toast, satay, ice milo. 3 times. smiles with full bellies.
mango sago (HOW CAN THERE BE NO JIANG TANG?) memories.
east coast. kite flying. balloon helicopter. sparklers. old-school-balloons. 4am. laughter and running.

dont need to say goodbye. tears.

thank u.

god loves me, he sends me someone, one after another.

he-who-shall-not-be-named, lao yong, uncle leon.

and slowly i rise from the fall, i lean, depend, rely, and cease to crash and hit the ground, time and again. saved time and again by people around me.

mel loe:) xuanyu:) and my three successive safety nets who have stopped me from falling into the pits in their different ways.


Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

how to be dead.

im feeling an improvement in happiness index levels recently.

:)

films at sinema rocks my socks big time.

random food outings with uncle leon rocks my socks big time.

and outta all these rocks my socks outings, im happy to have let go, of tht incessant nagging voice in me that has been waiting all this time, all this while. waiting. wait. stagnant.

to whoevers up there in the skies, let me have the strength for this state of mind to continue. thank u for sending me someone that prevented/distracted me from crumbling into misery, hopefully the next will be the one who wears my grape soda badge, walks with me up the hills for picnics and dances with me in living room.

let me learn to love and let go, and maybe someday, learn to make tang yuan.