everything you want.

beryl is a genius, she finished her education essay one day before the dateline (like how amazing yos).

beryl thinks vonny the best friend is questioning her ability to pick a boyfriend, beryl is very worried about this.

beryl is afraid that vonny's words might come true (touches wood many many times).

beryl does not want to rise from one depression to fall into another.

beryl is VERY HUNGRY now, but she is alone and waiting for her best monday breakfast partner aka uncle lam to finish his lab so she can makan.

beryl thinks avocado juice rocks her socks.

beryl thinks staying at sheares hall on sundays was the best decision she has ever made.

beryl think weiwen loves her UBER MUCH because she feeds weiwen and makes her laugh her ass off.

beryl likes to think that this week will be exciting max.

beryl is uber happy that shes fish-spa-ing again (shakes butt).

beryl wants to know if yuan yuan and vonny wants to go let fishes nibble their feet.

beryl will also be going for the baba-bling exhibition (SCREAMSSSS YAYYYYY).

beryl is happppppyyy that u remembered.

beryl thinks both best friends should cross-examine mr hippo (while lettting fishes nibble at their feet) so that she can determine whos level of humour wins (although the answer is HOW obvious).

beryl is waiting for rachel liau-ey and dragon/phoenix lover qi-tan to hurry unite again as the happy trio so that they can traumatise mr hippo.

beryl doesnt know about how mr hippo is catergorised in her life yet.

beryl thinks the only fair thing she can do for u and her is to get over everything before she can start on a clean clean slate with u.

beryl needs time.

beryl still sinks into solitary shut off the world sadness mode sometimes. (but she thinks its getting lesser, and she is glad about it)

beryl likes the little surprises now and then. :)

beryl needs caramel frappe with less whipped cream and more caramel drizzle AGAIN.

beryl likes to irritate everyone.

beryl thinks talking in third person perspective is actually QUITE FUN.

glorious

Thank you, for leaving me(this is so not sarcastic), but thank you, because it made me learn howta love others(more and more). :)

So this is what it feels like
This is how it feels, now im finally smiling on the inside
This is what it looks like, this is how it looks from the outside staring in
And it’s glorious just to laugh like us
And the world will turn it'll never stop
Cos I’ve nothing to hide, we’ve got nothing lose
And it’s glorious yeah it’s all I see on a day like this you know it 's meant to be
Now I’ve got nothing to hide I’ve got nothing to lose, but you
And it’s glorious

kills self

is like totally lost, cause she doesnt know what she is doing/did.

yea mans.

give me a little more time

maybe it really is going a lil too fast.

cause sometimes i get uber happy, and sometimes i get uber worried.

any o hows. im supposed to be doing my ageing essay now, but yes, im not. argh!

shld start ta concentrate. sighs.

just so u know

thank you. :)

for starbucks coffee(s), pinky the frower, the quirky notepads and endless suppers. (IM STILL PMS-ING) (and i do say thank you alrights :P )

random thought

cause you brought out the best in me, but u left too soon.

argh! shld start doing some work.

maybe ur love is the sort that has to develop over time.

i dont think i will ever learn to be independent. cause everytime i think im about to start learning howta take care of myself, someone pops by and starts taking care of me (for now tht is). and i feel uberly duperly blessed and lucky. but at times, i wonder if this is right, me depending on the new person all ready to take care of me, give in to me and cheer me up whenever whereever. like wad if the one now left, and the next/other person takes ten billion years to arrive, like will i then be crumbling into depression like well before, just tht i was saved in the nick of time before, and well in a pretty fast and consecutive nicks ofs times too.

the brutal/honest truth is that i realised i need distractions, distractions from my pain, misery, loneliness, memories and insecurities, and no im not using people to just well merely distract me. but i have these people, to constantly appear and well thankfully distract me. but i just, dont want to depend so excessively, though fine i realised wad i sometimes want to do is completely opposite from what i end up doing.

on a random note, had this really interesting talk with vonny yips today, like how u know girls like us restrain control, rein in our emotions so we look like we are ever ready to fix things ourselves, to maintain this "image" that we well are perfectly neutralised beings with the confidence of a erm... ris low? haha. ok fine not funny. but well, see i for one, would reel in ALL and i mean ALL my emotions at any point (most of the time). for eg: when i get surprises from you know whos with you know wads (ok just rambling), i smile, demurely, happily, and say thank you. BUT HEY. IN MY LITTLE FIST-SIZED HEART (and this is some injection of my scientific knowledge) im screaming HELLLLL YEAAAA! O MY TIAN O MY TIAN! THIS IS SOOOOOO SWEET LOVELY COOL! THANK U THANK U THANK U. LOVES IT LOVES U LOVES THE DAY. but well, i reel it all in, and mutter. thank you. (cues gentle loving smile) and almost immediately i then detect this sense of "wah lao like tht only ah feeling" i get from you know whos with their you know whats. upon which from certain individuals the statement of "next time dont surprise u alr" can then be heard. but hey lovelies. i seriously am loving it (mac shld pay me for incorporating this, wait, o ya im not a famous blogger). the point is. why o why o why do girls like US (STRESSING THE FACT THT IM NOT ALONE, THERES WELL VONNY YIP), hold back all our emotions. our pride? sigh. i realised pride aint no nth no more in this world yos, when u let the one u love down. so fine, i get it. i will tell u how i love the surprise when i get the surprise ok (notes to self notes to self)

in conclusion. i would like to argue that we girls shld express out emotions when we can. but please not telling u to end up being a bitchy ass and like showing ur emotions WITHOUT BOUNDARIES HOR. xie xie.

give me a little more time,

years go by will i choke on my tears, till finally there is nothing left.

well i love the way we communicate, ur eyes focus on my funny lip shape.

everybody looking at u, here take hold of hand.

wad if im a mermaid in this jeans of yours with her name still on it.

silent all these years.

i've been here, silent all these years.

nth new, been doing nth productive, but having a whale of a time.
the fish farm was great. i have yummmilicious feet by the way.
and i have decided to come up with a pictorial list of my favourite people.
:)
for these are my favourite things.