i think typing helps.

sometimes, i wonder if i can fully trust, believe again in the thing called love. after being disappointed countless times by the opposite sex/ people u cant choose but who stay with u for life, i start to wonder if i could be truly happy again. today i found myself thinking of u. yes the YOU who said u would be there for me a year ago at this time. well, i wasnt in the state of accepting u fully, and obviously u found no need to wait. like wad uncle tan said i guess, outta sight, outta mind. but i wonder, what if i told u something then, something, anything, anything along the lines of hey i really really wanna be with u too, give me some time to get over someone i havta get over. how would things be like now. will i still be who im with. and yes, it seems like im going thru many guys all at once. but its not how it is. im stuck. always stuck on the one before, and i try (hell yes i try) to crawl my way out each and everytime. everytime i think i have fallen in love with who i should, i go back to my old ways after some time and wonder bout those i haven started/got dumped by. everytime i try to love you more NOW, u say something/ do something that makes me push myself away from u, cause i think its not worth a try.

o please the person above, just let me KNOW whos the ONE and stick with it. thank u.