記得有個人曾讓你那樣的心碎

我不夠認份

所以怕再為誰作出犧牲

愛要有天份

所以我始終學不會放任

我不夠天真

不允許我傻傻的等

對自己殘忍多殘忍

我要有分寸

我太過認真

所以才相信所謂的永恆

愛讓人恍神

所以止不住不小心沉淪

我太負責任

不允許有太多悔恨

對自己坦誠多坦誠

我自有分寸

我只是無辜的人 很需要歎氣聲

有一些文字的吻 只留給傷過的人

明知道有些問題沒有答案 還是要問

原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生

i cant believe im not doing any work when theres THREE essays due SOON.

and its a sign ok A SIGN, my cute boy (which qi says looks like an ahbeng, but its so not true, and yan/naz agrees with me) has walked past me twice, for like 4 days consecutively. ok fine granted that hes in my class, thts not the point, hahahah, the point is we bumped into each other twice outside class everyday ok. like how wootsie please! THIS IS A SIGN. dear cute boy u better fall head over heels in love with me, if not dont walk past me can. thanks. (and i refuse to say hi, cant YOU say hi, dont say dont say lo, sulks)

sooooo, these few days have beeeen, an emotional rollercoaster. which im glad seems to have slowed down a bit now. SEEMS. i hate it whenever i calm down, and SOMETHING has to happen. and i totally breakdown like nobodys business. dumb i know. but sigh. its scary, to know that u can feel SO MUCH for a person, in which u break down and cry with heaving sobs (thinks about someone during a speech, coughs coughs, ok inside joke). and just well cry and cry and well cry more. and everything, everything hurtful that was said, rings in ur head, with tht same voice, same tone, same like atmosphere.

went for lunch alone today at my favourite noodle stall. woots. its amazing tht i have finally managed ta gather up the guts to do such stuff here. like finally. mayb its a step. forward i hope.

o yaya! and i went ta snip my hair. so now i look a little mushroom-y.

anyways, so todayyyy, im going to thank... jang jang janggggggg... vonny yip and yuan yuan. cause they have been there thru my grey black or white?- kinda times. thru my von howwww, tanheyuan howww-times. thru my indecisiveness over haircuts. and have always managed to survive it, albeit being v irritated. PLUS they have always given me the most logical, rational, calm-ish advice ever. which well is amazing. im thankful for u two, cause i cant imagine two beryls speaking to each other, we would probably go into massive panic attacks ten thousand times a day. so yes, thank you you two, for being the calmest ppl ever. i come in peace, and i adore u two alot. since i say so much nice stuff, von can i have my hongkong longchamp messenger bag at half price, and yuan yuan, can u send me 500 sing dollars by next week ya. PRETTY PLEASEEEE. adoreeee u both to the max (if my wish is granted of course). hahahahahahahahahaha